i give up... invincible...

this was yesterdays news...
coz ald over 12a.m....
yesterday father, bro n'me went to c bro's house...
its kinda small... but as long as he lyks it than ok lo...
*not my house also... :P
b'fore tat we went to c a bungalow show house nearby there...
coz waiting for the agent to get the key...
damn big le... RM1.6million...
the smallest room = 3 quarter of bro's living room... :P
after tat we went bro's gf family's "pan mee" store n' eat...
it taste quite nice... but actually i dunno nice or not...
coz dad say nice nice nice...
the "pan mee" actually hav a nickname...
tat's "sonar pan mee"...
coz at the moment u eat... u surely will be sweating...
haha... :P
after eating we went to the nearby Jusco...
went there not more than 30mins than went out...

sienzz ar...
coz i was mad at Jusco...
this was bcoz the whole day... dad don talk to me...
i'm absolutely invincible... when i speak they wont reply or say anything...
i'm so damn sad u noe... coz dad just talk about me bro...
i was lyk when he saw a store then say " u wanna buy anything ar "...
i was lyk... oo.. i'm the 1 who lyks to spend ur money la...
but i always don buy... coz i noe my school fees ald damn expensive...
but how he treated me... how???

how u treat me dad... u say urself...

n' my bro... he just knows how to act in front of my father...
call me to argue wif my father coz of mummy thingy...
then later go n' take advantage...
he sure really knows how to act... all the family member just trusted him...
i tried to argue wif him b'fore...
but my mouth just kept losing to him...
nvm... i don need my family to live now...
even my sister...
she use to be the most important once in my life...
but now... NOPE!!!

i don need u to live my sister...
who u think u r... i noe u r damn busy n' damn stress these days...
but... nvm i don care anymore...
if u saw this comment of mine i noe u sure just say...
"Wat u wan to say u say lo, i hav no energy to argue," right.
tell u wat, u r not tat important to be anymore...
but u r still my sister... u hurt me too much...
i give up upon caring my sister too much... n' wat i get was just scolding...
only mum cares about me...
but i just dunno how to speak...
mum i'm so sorry ok!!!
how u'll still love me.... nor bro...
he's the bad guy...
haih... no1 will believe me...
i give up!!!

for now... i really dunno wat to do...
i'm too stress upon my family...
every1 hav a happy family...
hav a good brother... good sister...
me??? hav a big gap between them....
no comuunication... more arguement...
i noe if i post this i'll sure regret upon wat i said about my sister...
coz i really care her much till now...
she's the 1 who supports me more....
but from wat i hear from them...
sis just dont treat me as a important member...
she forgets about me...
i felt very sad about tat...
so i really dunno wat to do...
from small my birthdays wishes was just lyk i wanna hav a happy family...
*sometimes no... :P wanna be a star... haha... :P
but now wat i get...
i noe God hav a rule...
wat u wan... u need to earn it...
as in God giv u chance to get ur wish...
i tried...
lyk today... dad thinks tat i'm invincible...
so i say its a challenge... God is teaching me not to be mad...
i tried lots of times...
but i cant...
i'm too stress...
actually i hav a secret about my whole life...
but i cant tell...
mainly is coz by this family...
but i wont say...

i noe i'll sure regret for wat i've write just now...
but i need to remind myself wat had happened today...
i dunno if i need to say sorry to my sister or not...
..........
sorry...
but i wont frogive my brother...
just go to hell la u...

end of my feeling...