wow man.. it has been quite long since the last blog i post..
i think about 2-3months..?
things which happened in the past period has been hidden at a deep corner inside my brain..
but the incident which happened few days ago.. it's still fresh in my mind..
Survivors Camp.. 生活营。。。路难行。。。 努力拼。。。一定赢。。。
tat's our camp "slogan"...
haha..
it was a fun camp to go.. learned much.. changed much.. got touched..
but i still need to know more n' learn more..
knowing GOD is not a trend..
is a faith.. a chance to let u know more about life..
i'm frank to say tat i don know much about GOD..
why did he create us.. why this n' that.. there're still pieces of puzzles tat r still missing..
i really need to know more about HIM..
in the past i talk bad stuffs about HIM.. sometimes..
cox i don really know HIM.. HE's boring.. blabla..
tat's why i need to understand more..
in the camp.. the first day.. there're ppl crying.. me, haha.. ntg...
its kinda weird u know.. even today.. i still cant feel it.. "cox i went to another camp yesterday"..
they're crying.. i'm there just praying so tat GOD can let me feel wat they feel..
"GOD pls let me feel wat they feel.."..
bac to the Survivor Camp..
i cried on the 2nd day..
cox i had been through wat the IPs had said..
it was the first time i dare to walk to the front of the stage..
n' i cried.. then i hugged one of the IPs..
but the most comfort thing to me is.. there's 1 friend which i know him just 1 day..
he came down for me.. and put his hand on my shoulder..
it was a big comfort for me.. the feeling is weird to be frank..
he's such a great friend.. i just know him for a few hours.. n' he supports me..
ok.. then then.. something about I LOVE YOU..
tell ur parents tat you loved them..
i said.. tat day parents got happy.. then now..??
i'm bac again.. haih.. why.. but still got improve la..
just tat mum's words i always can get into mind.. haih..
then skip.. we played survivor games.. dodge ball.. etc..
my team got the 1st for dodge ball.. n' our team's average age r the smallest of the others..
haha.. after all the games.. till the last day.. we got the 1st.. :D
muahaha.. first time le..
my leader cried.. wow.. he was so touched when we got 1st place on the dodge ball.. n' the prize giving..
i dunno wat to post for now.. maybe i'll post others some other time la..
NOTE: my other time may be a few months later.. :P haha..
if u wanna check out my photos.. pls go to my FB.. thx.. :P
oh yea.. went to the camp yesterday..
okok la.. not to say not fun.. but it's ok..
learned why r u here lo.. SQ lessons..
yea.. bac to the prayer i prayed.. GOD maybe heard it..
cox SQ lessons is a lesson which let u understand GOD..
why r u here.. why this and that..
yea.. n' today this morning.. i dreamed a lot of dreams..
i dreamed i scolded my family.. one by one.. dream by dream..
weird huh.. n' then i woke up n' sleep again.. waiting for some1 to fetch me..
then i set the arlam on 11am.. 11.15am.. 11.30am.. 11.45am..
each of these 3 15mins.. i dreamed different dream..
but i just rmb'ed the 2nd 1.. which is from 11.15 to 11.30..
i dreamed there was ppl wif me.. quite a few..
then we're at a cave i think..
we're at the middle.. at one of the side was boards which withstands the water behind it..
then the board collapsed.. water flood in.. i don know how to swim.."even in reality"..
but others know.. then the water was gone.. n' the board was there again..
maybe it's something like an apocalypse.. then we go to the other side of the cave..??
the others was opposite.. but me i need to take my bagpack.. then i ran bac n' took it..
then i took 2 of my booster.. n' i rmb i took 1 holy bible on my hand..
weird again.. then there's 1 guy or girl was taking something too..
then another guy stood on something n' like sacrificing himself to save us..
there's something on top to press.. i tried to press it wif lots of things in my hand..
but then i didnt.. me n' the other guy/girl ran to the other side..
n' after we reached.. the water flood in.. the guy sacrificed i think..
dunno wat's this dream is about.. maybe a tsunami is coming..?

my prayer for now..
GOD pls let me know you more.. i dunno why r they crying.. could u let me feel wat they feel.. i'm sorry i did lots of wrong things.. i'm sry.. i don know wat can i do to my life now.. pls GOD.. let me know my way.. my path.. thx GOD.. AMEN..